Wednesday, January 03, 2007

it's a new year...
Yet i feel like i'm in still the exact place..

i'm broken..

heart break, is by far one of the worst feelings a human could endure... it's worst than physical torture.. cause at least, those wounds eventually heal.. no.. when your heart is broken.. its much harder to heal.. and sometimes.. you just don't..

I find that the longer the duration of the heart break, the longer it takes to heal.. i for one have had my heart broken slowly.. piece by piece.. and i don't know how long i'm going to take to heal.. i don't know if i ever am going to heal..

i've been crying..
My eyes are pretty dry..
i've been crying so much inside..

I pray to god for strength right now.. cause my hands are trembling.. my knees are buckling and i swear all i want to do it just cry my heart out.. just cry till i have no more tears to shed.. cry till my eyes are swollen.. cry till i collapse with exhaustion.. yet.. im to stubborn to do it.. i refuse to give in... and another part of me just wants to cry and pray to god that it makes the healing faster...

i need stregth.. i need support... i don;t know where to find it.. i don't know how long i can go on smiling.. i just don't know..

i'm so so broken...

Starred at |7:12 AM|

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